Don’t be Lost Words to an Empty Soul

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Don’t Be Lost Words to an Empty Soul:

In my prayer time God was speaking to me. He keeps saying that this is the year for a come back. Many people don’t realize how hard it’s actually been since I don’t really talk about my struggles. And how long it’s been for me praying on the same things over and over. Not that I don’t have struggle; I just choose not to focus on them. Not that I don’t have desires in my heart and want them to be fulfilled. But if all I ever did was focus on what I didn’t have I would never be able to move forward.

I had to stop for a moment and just thank God for past struggles. Because in that moment God was speaking. I started thanking Him for everything that I had been through because had I not been through those things I would never know what it was like. 

I wouldn’t know how to help someone going through the same things. I wouldn’t know what it was like being in a long term relationship only to have the other person skip out before it really even began. I wouldn’t know what is was like to have a parent walk out on you at 9 years old.

I wouldn’t know what it’s like to have a friend manipulate you so bad that you couldn’t see because you cared so deeply for them. I wouldn’t know what it was like to lend money to a family member for a funeral only to have them never pay you back.

I wouldn’t know what it was like to be rejected for promotion after promotion from one job to the next. They all say the same thing. “You are one of our best employees. I wish everyone showed up on time. Barely missed a day of work and plowed through with the type of work ethics you have”.  But when a promotion came up I was much too “needed” in the position I was in.  

I wouldn’t know what it was like to have a loved one go through cancer. I would never know what heart break felt like. And I would never know what it felt like to go through severe anxiety and depression from years of waiting on God’s promises to pass and my dreams to come true. As a 31 year old; I would like to get married one day.

But had I not gone through those things I would have never known what it felt like. I wouldn’t know how to bring a smile to someones face or an encouraging word after a loss. I’m not here to boast about my suffering. I just simply want to point something out.

The question is often asked, “Why does bad things happen to good people? Why does God allow shootings and discrimination and things of the sort? Why does God allow evil in the world”?

God gives us the power to choose. At any point in my life I could have chosen different paths. I could still be in a bad relationship. I could have chosen to have relationships with toxic people (family members or friends). I could have chosen to stay away from church. I could have chosen to stay at my first job where I probably would have been promoted eventually. 

God doesn’t make evil. He doesn’t create bad things in this world. It’s our choices that shape our lives. But not just our lives but the lives around us too. I’m not here to say that I have the answer to everything. I struggle daily with what I should do and what I really want to do.

But every disappointment was an opportunity that later would help me. Without those struggles I would never know how to lift someone else up. I don’t know about you but I don’t want to be lost words to an empty soul. This world has enough emptiness. I’d much rather fill someone else up with what God filled me with.

He filled me with strength, perseverance, joy, hope, encouragement. He filled me with a sound mind. And a healed soul. He filled me with His word daily whether I really noticed or not. And He filled me with crazy, looney faith. And I just want to encourage any else that is going through tough times that it does get better. One step, one day at a time. 

Be blessed everyone! @gitgfaith 

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God has bug spray!

I have to put a disclaimer on this before writing too far in. I had a weird dream but it wasn’t just a weird dream. I was half asleep however I was awake enough to know that I was dreaming.

It was very short and pretty gross. It grossed me out! So if you get quemish don’t go any further. 🙂

I dreamed that I was looking at my face in the mirror and I had a giant pimple that I just had to pop! (Warning! It gets grosser so nows the chance to opt out).

All of a sudden, as I’m squeezing this giant pimple, a big worm starts coming out of it! Mega GROSS! But that was the dream…that was it. (I know, but I did tell you it was short and gross).

Right after the dream I heard God say, “It’s been popped! It’s been released”!

This clearly was a message from God. But what does it mean?

There are two highlighted things in the dream. The pimple that had to be popped. And what came out of the pimple (the worm).

Pimples are usually a raised bump on the skin, typically on the face. They are made up of excess sebum and dead skin cells and cause the area to be inflamed.

Now for the worm I spent several hours looking for “the worm” I saw in my dream. I had not seen this worm before. It was very distinct. This was not an earth worm. It had a prominent head that was this orange tint color. And the body was a soft yellow or tan-ish color. And you could tell one end from the other. The head did not blend in with the rest of the body. And the worm was not short. It was long and had a few legs.

I love how Webster’s Dictionary defines the different aspects of a worm.

Worm: (noun)
1: a: EARTHWORM broadly : an annelid worm

b: any of numerous relatively small elongated usually naked and soft-bodied animals (such as a grub, pinworm, tapeworm, shipworm, or slowworm)

2: a: a human being who is an object of contempt, loathing, or pity : WRETCH

b: something that torments or devours from within

3: archaic : SNAKE, SERPENT

4: a usually small self-contained and self-replicating computer program that invades computers on a network and usually performs a destructive action

Worm: (verb)

wormed; worming; worms: to move or proceed sinuously or insidiously

1: a: to proceed or make (one’s way) insidiously or deviouslyworm their way into positions of power

b: to insinuate or introduce (oneself) by devious or subtle means

c: to cause to move or proceed in or as if in the manner of a worm

2: to obtain or extract by artful or insidious questioning or by pleading, asking, or persuading —usually used with out of finally wormed the truth out of him

3: to treat (an animal) with a drug to destroy or expel parasitic worms

I finally found the ‘worm’ in my dream. It was a grub worm. But not just any grub worm. The particular worm that jolted my spirit when I saw it was a witchetty grub worm.

I’m just gonna throw this out there. I don’t think there’s a coincidence that the worm in my dream, that I had never seen before and knew nothing about, has the root word ‘witch’ in it.

I’m not here to make you believe this way or that. But let me tell you there are dark forces our there plotting against you. (But that’s a whole other subject).

So what do these worms do? This is the larva for many species of moth. You can find them #underground feeding on #roots.

Let me rephrase that. You can find them underground (hidden, or unseen) feeding on roots (grounded roots in Christ).

I’ve felt for a very long time that things haven’t been right. I’ve done the right things and while everyone else was just floating through life I felt like my life has been under a magnifying glass.

I’ve felt like every good thing that I did has been noticed, but completely ignored. And every bad thing (or rather it wasn’t right in the eyes of authority) was picked apart. It’s been a heavy weight that stress just piles on.

I have felt things eating away at my soul. Feeding on my roots as a Christian so that for the longest time I couldn’t find my identity in Christ.

The devil has tried so hard to bring evil against me. But I felt like God was saying the worm sent against me just inflamed the area. But now is the time to take authority and pop that pimple!

While looking for the worm in my dream I found a scripture that God spoke so deeply into my heart.

Joel 2:25-27 King James Version (KJV)

25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

26 And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.

27 And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the Lord your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed.

He is the Lord my God! He will make everything right again. And He will restore my years. And the great thing about God is that this isn’t just for me.

He’s a big loving God that cares for His children. I’m ready for the bug spray Lord! Thank you Lord releasing blessings. Thank you in Jesus name amen!

Tell that Mountain to Move!

I have been getting quite the push back at my place of work as of recently.

I’m not trying to toot my own horn here but I am a very hard worker. I was even rewarded for my hard work ethics and got to go on a company paid cruise in February.

A position opened up for a promotion and I applied for it. And another co-worker received the promotion. I was happy for this person until I noticed a dramatic change.

Instead of receiving help I got more work put on me. And was told multiple times to suck-it-up. That there was nothing they could do. Mind you this was a task that was on the coordinator (the higher position) until the new coordinator came in.

And it wouldn’t bother me so much except I have more accounts and bigger balances and on top of that this new task I was given the most territories to work with bigger issues. So instead of focusing on what I should be, I spend at the very least, two hours a day, doing something else.

This past week, I brought up something and instead of receiving help again. I got push back from the manager and the coordinator. They were throwing something back on me which they had no reason to. It’s something that another department didn’t need the information that the manager and coordinator threw back on me to find.

They both know my character. They both know how hard I work. I have already felt like the person that got promoted is planting false bugs and accusations. And it wouldn’t be the first time they have done this to someone else. And in that moment God spoke very clearly to me about a few things.

He said, “This push back is because I want you to be blessed. They aren’t receiving the blessing I’m about to give you. They don’t follow me like one of them claims they do. You can ask them when the last time they actually spent time with me and not just on Sunday mornings…and they wouldn’t be able to tell you.

So this blessing is for you. Not them. But to be blessed I need you to speak to this mountain. Tell it to move! This is your training. This is your comeback!”

And I receive that in Jesus name! Thank you Lord for adversity. I may not like it. But it shows me your glory! It shows me how big my God is and how much He cares for me.

I can’t help their actions but I can put the situation in the hands of my true boss! I work for God as He has assigned me to the company I currently work for. He is my boss and He is theirs whether they realize it or not.

Mountain of adversity I command you to move in Jesus name! I don’t live in Egypt and I don’t wander the wilderness anymore!

My God fights my battles! My heavenly daddy comes in with a sword slashing every issue coming up against me. Nepotism runs through my blood as I am a daughter of a King! That push back is no more in Jesus name!

My enemies have put my name to shame and taunted me when I didn’t deserve it. Satan says that I won’t win. God says I will win in front of them. And inspite of them. Because when God gives a yes; no man can stop it!

I am highly favored and blessed! I have all of heaven fighting for me! Thank you Lord Jesus that you don’t leave your family hanging. Thank you Jesus for moving this mountain. Thank you for fighting my battles and blessing me despite their attampts to pull me down! In your powerful and mighty name Jesus, amen!

Mark 11:23
Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.

Don’t let their fears become your reality.

On Saturdays I usually go #exercising by walking a park trail. I love decompressing on Saturdays. It gets me out of my busy schedule. And in an environment where I can download (hear) from #heaven.

The devil tried to trip me up by having a friend of mine be extremely insistent about taking mace with me. You hear stories all the time about someone getting attacked while #walking or #jogging.

I make it a point to not go (or wait) if there isn’t enough light outside. Because let’s be smart here. No one should be walking in a park in the dark.

So I get their logic. But to carry a mace can for four miles seems a little counter productive. I bring my keys, my phone and my headphones and that’s really about all that a person can carry without a bag.

God was speaking to me through this instance about fear. See the devil used that person’s #fear to try and get me to be afraid. I felt like the Holy Spirit was saying that if you give into their fears, even just to appease them, then you are putting trust in the can of mace over the Lord my God who walks with me.

I mean think about it. These days you can’t even walk outside of your own house or sleep in your own bed without saying a praying of protection. What’s a can of #mace going to do that God can’t?

The Lord kept saying that person is bringing up ‘their’ fears because ‘their’ faith in Him is so little. Just because it’s their fears does not mean it has to be mine.

And truth be told this person doesn’t want to do anything about their fears. If you are so afraid for me then either pray that I be protected or go with me as I #exercise.

But instead their fears are being pushed on me and I will not succumb to being fearful. My God #protects me. He, Himself walks with me. If there’s a shady #character around I know He has angels disguised as people walking the trail with me.

The most #powerful weapon I have is not in a can. But already equiped with me before I was born. My mouth sings praises and my prayers keep evil away.

After the Holy Spirit spoke to me about their fears He had me rebuke their words. Words are powerful. Even a non-believer can speak a negative #prophecy over you. Don’t let their fears become your reality.

The Spirit of Manipulation

I’m writing this because I want your ears and eyes to be #open. I know you’ve probably seen it before and maybe you didn’t recognize it. But it’s there. And it never left. It’s that person that you’ve caught lying.

I’m not taking about the “little white lie”. And I’m not talking about a fib where the person is caught between telling you look good in those jeans or seriously ruining your day. It’s multiple lies. With deep #manipulation. It’s the people that you care about the most. The one’s that you think would never do that. The one’s that if they were a car salesman you’d buy the most expensive car on the lot because convinced you that you needed it.

Everyone around you tells you what they see because they love and care for you. They want you to know the truth. But that person wiggles their way through the lies so much that now you question what’s #truth. And you question who is really on your side.

Their lies keep adding. Their stories get more elaborate. And they have an “excuse” for everything. No one can prove them otherwise so you take their word as truth. After all, what they say seems pretty #legit.

The lies become much more chaotic. But your heart of #gold still cares for them. You want nothing more than to believe in them. That “it’s just a bad break”. You stick with them cheering them on be because everyone else is against them in some shape, form or fashion.

Eventually, their lies catch up to them and it actually gets the liar into trouble. Sometimes it’s with the law, sometimes it’s in a marriage, and sometimes it’s a student or child.

You are now seeing the result of their lies but your heart still feels for them. Especially after what seems like a turn around.

That lie that got them into trouble has put them on a short-term straight and narrow path. Now for every situation there’s a different type of straight path. But the #consequences are almost always less privileges and stricter rules.

Let me tell you…even with the straight and narrow path, that spirit NEVER left!

That path just makes things lay dormant. But it never went away. By now you should have seen glimpses of that spirit poking it’s head out. It’s just waiting for the freedom to cause more lies and #chaos.

If left dormant for long enough the spirit does get restless. It can’t stand conformity. It needs chaos so it blacklashes and unfortunately it causes havoc on the person it’s attached itself to. Often times you will see this in nose bleeds, fainting spells, and seizures. (You can find reference to this in Mark 9:17-18).

But the second it has #freedom and eyes are off of them their best behaviour goes out the window. Just because you don’t see it and you can’t prove anything does not mean that spirit is gone. Again hun, it’s just #dormant.

Don’t fret too much. It’s not the person that you should be angry at. The spirit that controls them has them on a short leash. And when that freedom opens up (and it will open up) it’ll have the person that it’s attached itself to doing all sorts of things to wreck havoc.

Have you ever asked that person, “Why do you do these things? Why do you lie? Why do you <fill in the blank>? And their answer is usually, “I don’t know”.

It’s because they don’t actually know what makes them do what they do. All they know is that in the moment it was the thing to do.

You are making yourself crazy thinking you need to disciple the person when really you need to discpline the spirit behind the person.

I know your #emotions are on a winding rollercoaster right now but take a deep breath. Not everyone sees this behavior right off the bat. It’s because of your care for this person that makes it difficult to #expose the truth.

Your heart wants to see the best and it should but before you can do that it’s important to spot the red flags and really get down to the root. Make prayer, fasting, worship and observation your routine and God will show you if this person you love so dearly has an unclean spirit.

Devil BACK OFF!

Sometimes you just need to speak it!

Devil #BACKOFF in Jesus name!

You tried the same exact things two years ago. It didn’t work then. So what makes you think it’s going to work again this time?

I felt weak back then. But I don’t anymore. God is on my side. Jesus is on the #thrown and prays for me everyday. Heavens #angels walk with me. They even ride in my car with me! The Holy Spirit lives within me.

These attacks are stupid. These rejections are just a sign of my future. #Abundance and #promotion are what I have to look forward to because Heaven is with me. Heaven favors me in Jesus name! I am a child of God.

And I have nothing to #fear or #worry about. The tides are turning in my #favor Jesus name amen!!!

Know Your Self Worth

1 Peter 3:3-4 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

Proverbs 3:15-18 She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her. Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor. Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace. She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her; those who hold her fast will be blessed.

Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Most if us don’t know our self-worth. We live in society where it’s ok to call women sexy or hot but I am here to tell you that I will not date a man that calls me either.

Maybe that sounds a little conceited but I know who I am in Christ. And if a guy calls me either of those two things, red flags go up in my brain all over the place.

That tells me the guy isn’t interested in my heart but rather how I look or what I can do for him. I’m sorry but I don’t play that.

Listen up!!! Men looking for a God fearing woman (or husband’s that already have one), be careful what you call her. She is beautiful, she is gorgeous and she is wonderfully made.

Women! Do you not know your worth? Proverbs 31 tells you that you are a daughter of a King! If you can’t tell a guy how to treat you, he will treat you however he wishes. He’ll name you baby momma because that’s how YOU allow him to treat you.

If a guy knows his worth and mistakenly calls you hot, he will not be offended. He will correct himself and his actions “from there on” will prove the words he just spoke.

Let me give you a tip: If he does get offended, chances are he ain’t for you.

GOD HAS SOMEONE BETTER! DON’T SETTLE!!!

Ladies, don’t give the time of day to a guy that seems interested in you if he doesn’t meet your standards.

If a guy that I didn’t know well asked me out these are the questions I’d ask him:

  1. What’s your name?
  2. How’s your faith?

If he can’t answer the second question without a second thought then I kindly decline his offer. I want a guy that also knows his worth in God.

People standards for what you want in a relationship and stick to them!

God will send the right person. Trust His timing. And get healed before you date. If you aren’t you will end up making bad dating choices.

DAUGHTERS OF A KING 2

Romans 10:13 For “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”
Genesis 15:1 After these things the word of the Lordcame to Abram in a vision, “Fear not, Abram, I am your shield; your reward shall be very great.”
Today was a very bad day. I was just highly frustrated with work and everything seemed to be coming at me on purpose just to rattle my skin. I was not in the mood for anything and no patience.
I remember getting out of my car this morning and wondering whether I needed a jacket I turned around and grabbed it from the passenger seat just in case.
Before lunch it had already been a day. I just wanted to scream. I got several not so nice phone calls and emails and they didn’t seem to stop. I took a moment to write down a prayer and just asked Jesus to help. When I went back out to my car for lunch a neckless that hangs from my rearview mirror was placed neatly on the passenger seat. The seat I grabbed the jacket from. The necklace was not there this morning.
How did the necklace get from the rearview mirror to the passenger seat and placed as though someone had put it there? Angels.
I’ve encountered this before. Where things are neatly placed in front of me and had no way of being placed there. The necklace is a guitar pick and the front says Pick Jesus. The back has Romans 10:13 scripture written on it.
Jesus was telling me that He’s got my back. It didn’t make the day any less stressful but I felt so much peace that Jesus allowed an angel to give me a sign that I’m ok.
After lunch I couldn’t focus so I wrote down more of my prayer. I contented a declared that mountains are moving and the things that were making me so upset won’t even matter. Jesus has my back and He is going to dissolve every conflict. In Jesus name!
Later I saw another scripture Genesis 15:1 and I knew Jesus was trying to comfort me and let me know even further that He has it all covered.
Who am I that the creator of the universe would care so deeply about me? But He does. He says that I’m a daughter of a king.
Most of the time that extra pressure or stress is actually warfare. I can feel things in the spirit and today was a fight. But He was there with me the whole time.
Thank you God for loving me so much! Thank you Jesus for fighting with me. And Thank you Holy Spirit for walking me through this day.
In Jesus name all negative warfare is null in void and canceled! My Daddy is bigger then anything I will ever face! Amen!

God’s Love For Us

I have an adorable cat. She’s a bit ornery and squirmy but she’s so lovable. One night I just felt the presence of God so strongly and I couldn’t help but want to love on my cuddle cat for a moment.
The thing about cats is that the affection usually has to be on the cat’s term. I brought her close to me and said, “Just sit here for a moment. I just want to love on you”. And then I understood. God was telling me something in that moment. He said, this is how I feel about my children. We are the lovable child that usually only goestl to Him on our terms. But He’s bring us close for a moment.
And all He wants us to sit in His presence so He can shower us with His love.

Open doors

Today I had probably one of the worst days of my life. We all get bad days just as much as good but this day was like the cherry on top of the icing. One thing right after another. And I’m not gonna lie; I lost my patience more than once.

The intensity of warfare was probably at it’s highest today. As I went to lunch I was headed to the stairs right next to the elevator. All of a sudden the elevator doors quickly opened. There was no one in there. And there was no one waiting for the elevator either. It was unusual.

The holy spirit spoke and said open doors are coming. And all through lunch I kept seeing one thing after another about open doors.

Went home and looked up a few scriptures about open doors. The ones below really stood out to me.

Rev 3:7-8 “And to the angel of the church in Philadelphia write: ‘The words of the holy one, the true one, who has the key of David, who opens and no one will shut, who shuts and no one opens. “‘I know your works. Behold, I have set before you an open door, which no one is able to shut. I know that you have but little power, and yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name'”.

Acts 14:27 “When they had arrived and gathered the church together, they began to report all things that God had done with them and how He had opened a door of faith to the Gentiles”.

Isa 22:22 “And I will place on his shoulder the key of the house of David. He shall open, and none shall shut; and he shall shut, and none shall open“.

2 Chronicals 29:3 “In the first year of his reign, in the first month, he opened the doors of the house of the Lordand repaired them”.

I feel like God is saying today that even though chaos is around us we should get excited because He is about to open doors.