Don’t Be Lost Words to an Empty Soul:
In my prayer time God was speaking to me. He keeps saying that this is the year for a come back. Many people don’t realize how hard it’s actually been since I don’t really talk about my struggles. And how long it’s been for me praying on the same things over and over. Not that I don’t have struggle; I just choose not to focus on them. Not that I don’t have desires in my heart and want them to be fulfilled. But if all I ever did was focus on what I didn’t have I would never be able to move forward.
I had to stop for a moment and just thank God for past struggles. Because in that moment God was speaking. I started thanking Him for everything that I had been through because had I not been through those things I would never know what it was like.
I wouldn’t know how to help someone going through the same things. I wouldn’t know what it was like being in a long term relationship only to have the other person skip out before it really even began. I wouldn’t know what is was like to have a parent walk out on you at 9 years old.
I wouldn’t know what it’s like to have a friend manipulate you so bad that you couldn’t see because you cared so deeply for them. I wouldn’t know what it was like to lend money to a family member for a funeral only to have them never pay you back.
I wouldn’t know what it was like to be rejected for promotion after promotion from one job to the next. They all say the same thing. “You are one of our best employees. I wish everyone showed up on time. Barely missed a day of work and plowed through with the type of work ethics you have”. But when a promotion came up I was much too “needed” in the position I was in.
I wouldn’t know what it was like to have a loved one go through cancer. I would never know what heart break felt like. And I would never know what it felt like to go through severe anxiety and depression from years of waiting on God’s promises to pass and my dreams to come true. As a 31 year old; I would like to get married one day.
But had I not gone through those things I would have never known what it felt like. I wouldn’t know how to bring a smile to someones face or an encouraging word after a loss. I’m not here to boast about my suffering. I just simply want to point something out.
The question is often asked, “Why does bad things happen to good people? Why does God allow shootings and discrimination and things of the sort? Why does God allow evil in the world”?
God gives us the power to choose. At any point in my life I could have chosen different paths. I could still be in a bad relationship. I could have chosen to have relationships with toxic people (family members or friends). I could have chosen to stay away from church. I could have chosen to stay at my first job where I probably would have been promoted eventually.
God doesn’t make evil. He doesn’t create bad things in this world. It’s our choices that shape our lives. But not just our lives but the lives around us too. I’m not here to say that I have the answer to everything. I struggle daily with what I should do and what I really want to do.
But every disappointment was an opportunity that later would help me. Without those struggles I would never know how to lift someone else up. I don’t know about you but I don’t want to be lost words to an empty soul. This world has enough emptiness. I’d much rather fill someone else up with what God filled me with.
He filled me with strength, perseverance, joy, hope, encouragement. He filled me with a sound mind. And a healed soul. He filled me with His word daily whether I really noticed or not. And He filled me with crazy, looney faith. And I just want to encourage any else that is going through tough times that it does get better. One step, one day at a time.
Be blessed everyone! @gitgfaith