Don’t be Lost Words to an Empty Soul

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Don’t Be Lost Words to an Empty Soul:

In my prayer time God was speaking to me. He keeps saying that this is the year for a come back. Many people don’t realize how hard it’s actually been since I don’t really talk about my struggles. And how long it’s been for me praying on the same things over and over. Not that I don’t have struggle; I just choose not to focus on them. Not that I don’t have desires in my heart and want them to be fulfilled. But if all I ever did was focus on what I didn’t have I would never be able to move forward.

I had to stop for a moment and just thank God for past struggles. Because in that moment God was speaking. I started thanking Him for everything that I had been through because had I not been through those things I would never know what it was like. 

I wouldn’t know how to help someone going through the same things. I wouldn’t know what it was like being in a long term relationship only to have the other person skip out before it really even began. I wouldn’t know what is was like to have a parent walk out on you at 9 years old.

I wouldn’t know what it’s like to have a friend manipulate you so bad that you couldn’t see because you cared so deeply for them. I wouldn’t know what it was like to lend money to a family member for a funeral only to have them never pay you back.

I wouldn’t know what it was like to be rejected for promotion after promotion from one job to the next. They all say the same thing. “You are one of our best employees. I wish everyone showed up on time. Barely missed a day of work and plowed through with the type of work ethics you have”.  But when a promotion came up I was much too “needed” in the position I was in.  

I wouldn’t know what it was like to have a loved one go through cancer. I would never know what heart break felt like. And I would never know what it felt like to go through severe anxiety and depression from years of waiting on God’s promises to pass and my dreams to come true. As a 31 year old; I would like to get married one day.

But had I not gone through those things I would have never known what it felt like. I wouldn’t know how to bring a smile to someones face or an encouraging word after a loss. I’m not here to boast about my suffering. I just simply want to point something out.

The question is often asked, “Why does bad things happen to good people? Why does God allow shootings and discrimination and things of the sort? Why does God allow evil in the world”?

God gives us the power to choose. At any point in my life I could have chosen different paths. I could still be in a bad relationship. I could have chosen to have relationships with toxic people (family members or friends). I could have chosen to stay away from church. I could have chosen to stay at my first job where I probably would have been promoted eventually. 

God doesn’t make evil. He doesn’t create bad things in this world. It’s our choices that shape our lives. But not just our lives but the lives around us too. I’m not here to say that I have the answer to everything. I struggle daily with what I should do and what I really want to do.

But every disappointment was an opportunity that later would help me. Without those struggles I would never know how to lift someone else up. I don’t know about you but I don’t want to be lost words to an empty soul. This world has enough emptiness. I’d much rather fill someone else up with what God filled me with.

He filled me with strength, perseverance, joy, hope, encouragement. He filled me with a sound mind. And a healed soul. He filled me with His word daily whether I really noticed or not. And He filled me with crazy, looney faith. And I just want to encourage any else that is going through tough times that it does get better. One step, one day at a time. 

Be blessed everyone! @gitgfaith 

God has bug spray!

I have to put a disclaimer on this before writing too far in. I had a weird dream but it wasn’t just a weird dream. I was half asleep however I was awake enough to know that I was dreaming.

It was very short and pretty gross. It grossed me out! So if you get quemish don’t go any further. 🙂

I dreamed that I was looking at my face in the mirror and I had a giant pimple that I just had to pop! (Warning! It gets grosser so nows the chance to opt out).

All of a sudden, as I’m squeezing this giant pimple, a big worm starts coming out of it! Mega GROSS! But that was the dream…that was it. (I know, but I did tell you it was short and gross).

Right after the dream I heard God say, “It’s been popped! It’s been released”!

This clearly was a message from God. But what does it mean?

There are two highlighted things in the dream. The pimple that had to be popped. And what came out of the pimple (the worm).

Pimples are usually a raised bump on the skin, typically on the face. They are made up of excess sebum and dead skin cells and cause the area to be inflamed.

Now for the worm I spent several hours looking for “the worm” I saw in my dream. I had not seen this worm before. It was very distinct. This was not an earth worm. It had a prominent head that was this orange tint color. And the body was a soft yellow or tan-ish color. And you could tell one end from the other. The head did not blend in with the rest of the body. And the worm was not short. It was long and had a few legs.

I love how Webster’s Dictionary defines the different aspects of a worm.

Worm: (noun)
1: a: EARTHWORM broadly : an annelid worm

b: any of numerous relatively small elongated usually naked and soft-bodied animals (such as a grub, pinworm, tapeworm, shipworm, or slowworm)

2: a: a human being who is an object of contempt, loathing, or pity : WRETCH

b: something that torments or devours from within

3: archaic : SNAKE, SERPENT

4: a usually small self-contained and self-replicating computer program that invades computers on a network and usually performs a destructive action

Worm: (verb)

wormed; worming; worms: to move or proceed sinuously or insidiously

1: a: to proceed or make (one’s way) insidiously or deviouslyworm their way into positions of power

b: to insinuate or introduce (oneself) by devious or subtle means

c: to cause to move or proceed in or as if in the manner of a worm

2: to obtain or extract by artful or insidious questioning or by pleading, asking, or persuading —usually used with out of finally wormed the truth out of him

3: to treat (an animal) with a drug to destroy or expel parasitic worms

I finally found the ‘worm’ in my dream. It was a grub worm. But not just any grub worm. The particular worm that jolted my spirit when I saw it was a witchetty grub worm.

I’m just gonna throw this out there. I don’t think there’s a coincidence that the worm in my dream, that I had never seen before and knew nothing about, has the root word ‘witch’ in it.

I’m not here to make you believe this way or that. But let me tell you there are dark forces our there plotting against you. (But that’s a whole other subject).

So what do these worms do? This is the larva for many species of moth. You can find them #underground feeding on #roots.

Let me rephrase that. You can find them underground (hidden, or unseen) feeding on roots (grounded roots in Christ).

I’ve felt for a very long time that things haven’t been right. I’ve done the right things and while everyone else was just floating through life I felt like my life has been under a magnifying glass.

I’ve felt like every good thing that I did has been noticed, but completely ignored. And every bad thing (or rather it wasn’t right in the eyes of authority) was picked apart. It’s been a heavy weight that stress just piles on.

I have felt things eating away at my soul. Feeding on my roots as a Christian so that for the longest time I couldn’t find my identity in Christ.

The devil has tried so hard to bring evil against me. But I felt like God was saying the worm sent against me just inflamed the area. But now is the time to take authority and pop that pimple!

While looking for the worm in my dream I found a scripture that God spoke so deeply into my heart.

Joel 2:25-27 King James Version (KJV)

25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

26 And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.

27 And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the Lord your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed.

He is the Lord my God! He will make everything right again. And He will restore my years. And the great thing about God is that this isn’t just for me.

He’s a big loving God that cares for His children. I’m ready for the bug spray Lord! Thank you Lord releasing blessings. Thank you in Jesus name amen!

Tell that Mountain to Move!

I have been getting quite the push back at my place of work as of recently.

I’m not trying to toot my own horn here but I am a very hard worker. I was even rewarded for my hard work ethics and got to go on a company paid cruise in February.

A position opened up for a promotion and I applied for it. And another co-worker received the promotion. I was happy for this person until I noticed a dramatic change.

Instead of receiving help I got more work put on me. And was told multiple times to suck-it-up. That there was nothing they could do. Mind you this was a task that was on the coordinator (the higher position) until the new coordinator came in.

And it wouldn’t bother me so much except I have more accounts and bigger balances and on top of that this new task I was given the most territories to work with bigger issues. So instead of focusing on what I should be, I spend at the very least, two hours a day, doing something else.

This past week, I brought up something and instead of receiving help again. I got push back from the manager and the coordinator. They were throwing something back on me which they had no reason to. It’s something that another department didn’t need the information that the manager and coordinator threw back on me to find.

They both know my character. They both know how hard I work. I have already felt like the person that got promoted is planting false bugs and accusations. And it wouldn’t be the first time they have done this to someone else. And in that moment God spoke very clearly to me about a few things.

He said, “This push back is because I want you to be blessed. They aren’t receiving the blessing I’m about to give you. They don’t follow me like one of them claims they do. You can ask them when the last time they actually spent time with me and not just on Sunday mornings…and they wouldn’t be able to tell you.

So this blessing is for you. Not them. But to be blessed I need you to speak to this mountain. Tell it to move! This is your training. This is your comeback!”

And I receive that in Jesus name! Thank you Lord for adversity. I may not like it. But it shows me your glory! It shows me how big my God is and how much He cares for me.

I can’t help their actions but I can put the situation in the hands of my true boss! I work for God as He has assigned me to the company I currently work for. He is my boss and He is theirs whether they realize it or not.

Mountain of adversity I command you to move in Jesus name! I don’t live in Egypt and I don’t wander the wilderness anymore!

My God fights my battles! My heavenly daddy comes in with a sword slashing every issue coming up against me. Nepotism runs through my blood as I am a daughter of a King! That push back is no more in Jesus name!

My enemies have put my name to shame and taunted me when I didn’t deserve it. Satan says that I won’t win. God says I will win in front of them. And inspite of them. Because when God gives a yes; no man can stop it!

I am highly favored and blessed! I have all of heaven fighting for me! Thank you Lord Jesus that you don’t leave your family hanging. Thank you Jesus for moving this mountain. Thank you for fighting my battles and blessing me despite their attampts to pull me down! In your powerful and mighty name Jesus, amen!

Mark 11:23
Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.

Don’t let their fears become your reality.

On Saturdays I usually go #exercising by walking a park trail. I love decompressing on Saturdays. It gets me out of my busy schedule. And in an environment where I can download (hear) from #heaven.

The devil tried to trip me up by having a friend of mine be extremely insistent about taking mace with me. You hear stories all the time about someone getting attacked while #walking or #jogging.

I make it a point to not go (or wait) if there isn’t enough light outside. Because let’s be smart here. No one should be walking in a park in the dark.

So I get their logic. But to carry a mace can for four miles seems a little counter productive. I bring my keys, my phone and my headphones and that’s really about all that a person can carry without a bag.

God was speaking to me through this instance about fear. See the devil used that person’s #fear to try and get me to be afraid. I felt like the Holy Spirit was saying that if you give into their fears, even just to appease them, then you are putting trust in the can of mace over the Lord my God who walks with me.

I mean think about it. These days you can’t even walk outside of your own house or sleep in your own bed without saying a praying of protection. What’s a can of #mace going to do that God can’t?

The Lord kept saying that person is bringing up ‘their’ fears because ‘their’ faith in Him is so little. Just because it’s their fears does not mean it has to be mine.

And truth be told this person doesn’t want to do anything about their fears. If you are so afraid for me then either pray that I be protected or go with me as I #exercise.

But instead their fears are being pushed on me and I will not succumb to being fearful. My God #protects me. He, Himself walks with me. If there’s a shady #character around I know He has angels disguised as people walking the trail with me.

The most #powerful weapon I have is not in a can. But already equiped with me before I was born. My mouth sings praises and my prayers keep evil away.

After the Holy Spirit spoke to me about their fears He had me rebuke their words. Words are powerful. Even a non-believer can speak a negative #prophecy over you. Don’t let their fears become your reality.