God of the Blessing!

I know exactly how you feel Hun. My prayers weren’t being answered for years (over ten). Not just one but multiple. It felt like a never ending battle.

I felt like I had no purpose. I felt like when I prayed for others they got their breakthrough but I was still stuck waiting for mine.

I have the gift of faith. But it felt like my faith was slipping. All the years were adding up.

I knew God was moving but still felt disappointed and was hoping on everything this time my prayers would be answered.

I felt unable to pray. Not that I lost all faith. I still had it. I still believed. It’s just Everytime I did pray my heart would hurt so badly I couldn’t continue.

I sobbed so much until I couldn’t but somehow I sobbed some more.

I felt really alone in this world. The only thing I could do was pray that someone was praying for me because I could no longer do it.

Someone did start praying for me. And my breakthrough happened. Not all of my prayers has been answered (just a few). But God is for sure working on the rest right now.

I didn’t understand why many others had their prayers answered but now I do.

God was rearranging things. And not just a few things here and there. He was moving mountains to bring my blessing in the background. And He still is!

The things God taught me while waiting are unmeasurable.

I’m more appreciative of my blessing bc it didn’t happen overnight. I find more joy in this blessing.

I literally thank God everyday for answering my prayer. And the things God worked on in me while I was waiting has helped me receive this blessing in a greater capacity.

There will always be opposition bc the devil doesn’t like seeing you blessed. He’s jealous. He sees what favor God has placed on you. He sees God moving things around to bless you. So he sends things to drail or distract you.

But the bible says whatever you have lost you will gain back with interest!

Something I say often is that when your faith is slipping you can borrow the faith of others. Ask God to impress on the heart of someone to pray for you. It’s much more powerful when God does the impressing rather than us asking for someone to pray for us. It’s a matter of the heart of the person praying for you. And God always finds the right one!

I hope and pray that you are encouraged while God is working out the details of your blessing. He is the God of the details.

Once your blessing has arrived it will be exactly what you prayed for and more. God even brings the desires of your heart that you hoped for but never said in prayer.

When God answers that prayer it will be with an explanation point!

Be blessed. 💗


I get it. You feel like an outcast. You don’t fit the mold. You want more than anything to have close relationships with people. And you will with a few select individuals.

You are having a hard time with being distant. The cliques just don’t make sense for you. You try to be friendly. But it seems like it just makes it worse. You feel left out. And not included.

Let me tell you. Your people are your people. They will support you. Even if they think your decisions don’t make sense. Following God is not always easy. But following His peace is where you will find rest.

Your distance from people is necessary. God is calling you to a higher level where others either can’t go. Or aren’t ready for. The cave and the valley are prepartion for your calling.

Your distance from the crowd is because God needs to keep your emotions in check. When we have close relationships we are septible to putting our feelings and our will on the ones closest to us. And that causes rifts. That’s causes breaks in relationships. When God is moving us in different directions then we had thought we tend to try to control stuff.
Do not lay your hurts on others. Distance heals the heart.

You will have what your heart desires but in God’s timing. Heal that heart Hun. Break those generational curses. Break those bondages off of you and your family line.

Maybe you are called to bring people together or bring healing to others. But to do that your emotions have to be far enough from other individuals so that you aren’t putting your will on them.

When you are too close to a situation your sight gets clouded. Your hurts and emotions (flesh) start taking over and it feels impossible to remedy a situation. And if you were friends with every single individual you would not be able to look at a situation unbiasedly.

Yes, you don’t fit the mold. But that’s how God made you. Take that distance as a compliment and rise above the devil’s attacks/lies.

Sometimes all you need is understanding to help carry you through. And I hope this helps those struggling.

Give your battles to God and watch Him move those mountains! ♥️

I couldn’t believe the words that came out of a leaders mouth!

Have you ever had a leader say something that didn’t resonate with your spirit? Well that’s what happened to me recently.

But to understand fully I have to give some background to why it didn’t resonate.

The person that this was coming from was previously a leader in my church. They had left quietly due to disagreement with the pastors.

I was saddened to hear that they had left and paid little attention to the reason why as I understood that there will be disagreements. And I respected their decision to leave especially since it wasn’t made public.

And I still respect them as a person. But what was said I haven’t been able to get it out of my brain since I heard it. I was shocked.

This person said, “I know the pastors listen to a lot of prophets but it just seems like they were all wrong. They all prophcied one thing and they all got it wrong. I should be listening to the word of God myself instead of these so called prophets”.

While this person does have some truth to what they said I want to dig deep into what they were saying.

The first part was a slight on our pastors. I have a personal relationship with them and have for nearly ten years. I know they listen and read the word of God. I have absolutely no doubts on their walk with God. And I know what God speaks to me is often confirmed through our pastors in sermons at church later.

The second is that this person seems to have no faith on words that have yet to happen. We know in part and prophcy in part (1 Corinthians 13:9). But it is all in Gods timing. Just because a word has been spoken doesn’t happen right away doesn’t mean that it won’t happen later. God has a reason for doing things this way. Just trust Him.

And the third thing is that they used the word “instead”. They said they should be listening to the word of God instead of prophets. This suggests that they were saying they weren’t reading the word of God before hand.

Now I want to be clear. This isn’t an article to throw shade at the person that spoke these words. I still love and respect this person. But I was shocked that they were speaking such doom and gloom instead of life.

If they are not spending even 15 mintues with God and how can they know what God is saying?

I love and I pray for this person and that God will help them get back on track.

I will say it is really upsetting considering the position they had in the church before leaving.

But you must understand something here about prophets. Prophets have always been here. God uses their voice to bring heaven to earth. Matthew 6:10-11.

True prophets know what God is speaking regardless. And what I mean by that is that they are so grounded in God that it is almost impossible to convince them of something else.

Are there true prophets that have lost their grounding? Absolutely. Just as God gave me discernment about the person that spoke these words there are prophets that have slipped away from God.

But more importantly God is shaking loose the false prophets and shifting them to be exposed. No longer will God tolerate the pimps in pulpit. Those that were in ministry for show will not make it in this next season.

In this moment God is testing and refining the backslidders. He is redeeming the ones that come back close and want to be redeemed.

In the next move of God; true prophets, worshipers and friends of God are going to move to the front to help sheppard and lead the incoming flock.

Revival is breaking forth and a harvest is ready for people to come into the kingdom.


Exodus 7:3-5

“3 But I will make Pharaoh’s heart stubborn so I can multiply my miraculous signs and wonders in the land of Egypt. 4 Even then Pharaoh will refuse to listen to you. So I will bring down my fist on Egypt. Then I will rescue my forces—my people, the Israelites—from the land of Egypt with great acts of judgment. 5 When I raise my powerful hand and bring out the Israelites, the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord.”

Did Moses give up when he was sent to set the slaves of Egypt free? NO. No he did not.

And how many plagues did he have to release? How hard was the heart of the Pharaoh? He finally let them free to escape and then Pharaoh changed his mind right afterwards.

Listen for those with ears to hear! God has harden the hearts of many to bring the signs, wonders and miracles this country and countries all of over the world that we all desperately need!

This is not the time to give in! If the Media is giving your faith much grief then turn it off! I hear what the media is saying. I pay close attention to it so that I may be informed. Even with everything they are saying my spirit says; “THE DEVIL IS LYING”!!!!

He is absolutely scared about what’s about to happen. He’s throwing every scare tactic and smoke screen he can at us and sadly it’s working!!! Even true prophets, friends of God, are bowing out.

Friends, I know the emotions and anxieties are running rampant but pause for a moment and breathe. Take a couple of deep breaths. God has set the stage. He will not fail us.

God has something in His back pocket ready to unleash as to rescue us from Egypt. All this chaos is actually confirmation.

We are at a Red Sea Moment right now. It seems impossible for us to cross. It looks like this is the end of the road. Pharoah’s army is right behind us.

BUT TAKE COURAGE!!! God is doing some amazing things that we cannot even begin to think or comprehend. This is way beyond our knowledge.

1 Corinthians 13:9

“Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture!”

Trust God’s timing on this. A lot of people are confused about what’s going on in the world today. Myself included. If something that was prophecied didn’t happen, just know that is ok. Prophets see things alot of things in advanced but they don’t get the full picture.

What was prophecied could take a while to manifest on the earth. We hope and pray that the time is NOW but don’t lose hope if a prophesy doesn’t come to pass when we want it to.

Be sure to give God glory and praise when it does come to pass.

We just have to trust the process and Trust that God’s got this.

One thing that can be certain is that God is setting the church up for revival. Let things play out and keep praying. 🙃❤️

Christ Builds Up While Satan Destroys.

Some of us are in need of an attitude check. It doesn’t matter your circumstances. Life is 90% on how we deal w/ things & how we treat others in the process.

You aren’t always going to get it right. But you need to start by recognizing what you say & how you say it has an impact on others. And currently, we have too many people acting in a non #Christ like way.

You need to speak life into your situation as well as others. All that negative talk just pushes people away. Because it’s #toxic. No one wants to hear your polluted words.

Christ builds up while Satan destroys.

But what about that person over there? Hun, do you think I’m blind? I KNOW. What about family & friends? I KNOW. What about how the church acts? I KNOW.

God is not saying He isn’t dealing with them. But that’s His job to deal with them. Not yours.

God is saying HE KNOWS but what He needs from you is to work on yourself first. So if your mouth is not building someone up, keep it shut.

So, what are we going to do? – Speak life, pray, worship, give thanks, praise, build up, love others, etc.

How are we going to do it? – Take what needs to go to God… to God. #giveittogod And treat others nicely, politely and w/ respect.

We just need to do better. Here’s your reading assignment…

Proverbs 10:19, Matt 3:5-6, Mark 12:30-31, 1 Cor 13, Proverbs 18:21, Psalm 141:3, Proverbs 12:18, Proverbs 15:1, James 3:3-6, 1 Peter 3:10, Proverbs 15:4, Proverbs 15:28, Proverbs 15:28, James 1:26, Proverbs 16:24, Proverbs 21:23, Matthew 12:37, Proverbs 29:20, Proverbs 31:26, Matthew 15:11, Ephesians 4:29, James 3:10

New Update to the System.

I had a dream last night. And in the dream I went back to work for a gas station I previously worked at.

I thought it would be easy since I’ve worked there before. But when I got there they had just done an update to their system the night before and didn’t tell anyone they were doing it.

So I get there for my first day. And the supervisor on duty went to go “check” on something and since I had worked there before, she left me by myself. None of the buttons were working on the system.

A lady came in with hot dogs and a drink. It should have been a simple transaction but nothing worked. As I’m helping her I apologise and explain everything to her. She was super nice. I explained that the system is reading the prompts but for some reason it’s not going through and I thanked her for her patience.

Then a guy came in and wanted gas. He said, “$80 on #2 please”. And then proceeded to pay with what he said was money. But it was clearly not. The only way I can describe it is it looked like poop made into a cookie. Confused I repeated his request back to him. He goes, “oh wait, I’ve got two cents. Please add that”. And digs in his pocket for a smaller poop cookie. He hands it to me and leaves. I try to go back to the first lady because she hasn’t been helped yet. The system still wasn’t working like it should have or did previously.

Then the phone rings so I call the supervisor over through the intercom so I can get the phone and the first lady could be helped. The supervisor just kinda stands there after I answer the phone. The person calling, all she wanted was to check her lotto over the phone. Lotto is a completely different machine and different system. So I thought it would be easy. But that system too was not working either. I looked to the supervisor and her response was, ” What do you want me to about it”?
She said she was not trained on this new way of doing things and so there was nothing she could do. She acted like she didn’t want to help at all and was making up excuses on why she couldn’t.

I apologized to the lady on the phone. She was super nice as well. I told her our machine was down and to maybe try another store. I went over to the lady with the hot dogs and drink and apologized to her again. I told her, “Sorry for the wait. For the inconvenience please have the hot dog and drink on us today”.

Then the guy that wanted gas comes in and said his pump was not working. The pump had not been turned on yet since I didn’t know what to do with the poop cookie money he gave me. Plus nothing else was working.
Again I tried to get the supervisor to help or say something but she walked off acting like it wasn’t her problem. I told the guy I needed to call the corporate office to see what was going on. Nothing seemed to be working.
The person I was talking to said yes there was an auto update to the system but there shouldn’t be as many problems as we were having and to figure it out.

I told them about the supervisor that didn’t want to help. And they said the supervisor had every right to act the way she did. It shouldn’t be her problem to fix. I told her this was my first day back in years since working here. And they replied, “Welcome back”. And hung up.

Frustrated, and not knowing what to do I said, ” I can’t do this anymore. If no one is going to help me then I can’t work here anymore”. I quit my job and left.

It was a weird dream but when I woke up I felt like God was saying Something very strong.

And here is His message: ” I know you want to quit. But that’s the wrong response. These people are all working on the old systems. But those old systems never worked to begin with. I’m doing a new thing. I updated the system. No one gave me permission. I didn’t need it anyways. But the old ways needed an upgrade. Yes, you will see a bit of frustration. And you will continue to see these people working off the old systems. But understand it’s because I need you to teach them how to work the new system. They need someone that has been there before to look at the issues and address how to move forward. This new system is what you’ve been training and preparing for. The old ways did nothing for the people. It lacked the correct leadership all the way to the top! It lacked laborers. It lacked connection. It lacked service and care to the people coming in.

It was a means to get us from point A to point B. But understand it never worked. So when I sent the update to the world I didn’t tell anyone. I see you here frustrated because the old system doesn’t work like it used to and that’s on purpose. Let Me help you know how to work this new update. The people that stood by and watched you work will be the ones asking you how to work the new system”.

This is extremely powerful and I think it’s a message to the church. The gas station is representation of the church. The supervisor and corporate person are leaders in the church. And the customers are the people coming into the church. Members of the church or potential members.

The lady with the hot dog and drink… all she wanted was to be fed. She waited and waited until she got what she needed and left.

The guy getting gas, paid for the gas…so he thought. But with what? A poop cookie? I kinda think God was saying, “That’s what your tithes look to me right now. It’s like what your giving to the church is a pile of poop”. In other words a burnt offering. You give because that’s your duty. Not because you have a heart of giving. Also when he reached in to give his two cents that had nothing to do with money. That’s a representation of the church giving THEIR “two cents”. Christians always seem to have to put their words in. Or add in their opinion. And God just wants us to listen before responding.

The lotto lady was calling with a question. Since the church didn’t know anything but the old system they had to advise her to check some place else.

What are we doing church? Trust God to help you through this new system. The people that stood by and watched you work will be the ones asking you how to work the new system. You may want to quit but God needs to to train and equip because there’s a new way of doing things.

Psalms 109

God is working on my behalf. In Jesus name amen!

1 God, I praise you.
Do not be silent.
2 Wicked people and liars have spoken against me;
they have told lies about me.
3 They have said hateful things about me
and attack me for no reason.
4 They attacked me, even though I loved them
and prayed for them.
5 I was good to them, but they repay me with evil.
I loved them, but they hate me in return.

6 They say about me, “Have an evil person work against him,
and let an accuser stand against him.
7 When he is judged, let him be found guilty,
and let even his prayers show his guilt.
8 Let his life be cut short,
and let another man replace him as leader.
9 Let his children become orphans
and his wife a widow.
10 Make his children wander around, begging for food.
Let them be forced out of the ruins in which they live.
11 Let the people to whom he owes money take everything he owns,
and let strangers steal everything he has worked for.
12 Let no one show him love
or have mercy on his orphaned children.
13 Let all his descendants die
and be forgotten by those who live after him.
14 Lord, remember how wicked his ancestors were,
and don’t let the sins of his mother be wiped out.
15 Lord, always remember their sins.
Then make people forget about them completely.

16 “He did not remember to be loving.
He hurt the poor, the needy, and those who were sad
until they were nearly dead.
17 He loved to put curses on others,
so let those same curses fall on him.
He did not like to bless others,
so do not let good things happen to him.
18 He cursed others as often as he wore clothes.
Cursing others filled his body and his life,
like drinking water and using olive oil.
19 So let curses cover him like clothes
and wrap around him like a belt.”
20 May the Lord do these things to those who accuse me,
to those who speak evil against me.

21 But you, Lord God,
be kind to me so others will know you are good.
Because your love is good, save me.
22 I am poor and helpless
and very sad.
23 I am dying like an evening shadow;
I am shaken off like a locust.
24 My knees are weak from fasting,
and I have grown thin.
25 My enemies insult me;
they look at me and shake their heads.

26 Lord my God, help me;
because you are loving, save me.
27 Then they will know that your power has done this;
they will know that you have done it, Lord.
28 They may curse me, but you bless me.
They may attack me, but they will be disgraced.
Then I, your servant, will be glad.
29 Let those who accuse me be disgraced
and covered with shame like a coat.

30 I will thank the Lord very much;
I will praise him in front of many people.
31 He defends the helpless
and saves them from those who accuse them.

God is your Vindicator!!!

A.K.A I got stopped by a cop so I want to tell you about it.

God was speaking to me so heavy this morning or rather so “heavenly”.

I ventured out early like I do most Saturday mornings. Nothing out of the ordinary. It was still dark out. I was headed to the grocery store to pick up a few things before heading to the park to walk on the trail. That is my normal routine on Saturday.

However today, there was this brighter than bright moon out. I was so captivated by this beautiful moon out. I kept looking at it while sitting a stop lights. I kept telling God it was so beautiful and how I admired His creation.

I thought to myself, “I’d love to take a picture of it when I get stopped”.

Not a moment later the red and blue lights start flashing behind me right as I was turning into the Walmart parking lot. I immediately stopped, rolled down my window and handed the police officer my driver’s license.

She tells me she stopped me because I forgot to use my blinker. I said, “Oh, I’m sorry”. Not really knowing how to respond. My caffeine hadn’t kicked in yet.

She comes back and says, “Here is your driver’s license back and I’m not going to write you a ticket. I’m just going to give you this warning card that we have to handout when issuing a warning. And be sure to use your blinker”.

Not going to lie, I was really flustered after that. I tried to stay very polite and respectful though. She was just doing her job and making sure I wasn’t someone causing trouble.

As I got up closer to the Walmart parking area my sole goal was to park and go in, get my stuff and leave that area as fast as I could. I had totally forgotten about taking a picture of the beautiful creation in the sky. By the time I had gotten out of the store, daylight was breaking.

On my drive to the park God kept replaying those specific words over and over. “I’m giving you a warning. I’m giving you a warning”.

I kept thinking, “Ok Lord, I know you are trying to tell me something here. I just don’t know what? Do I need to stop and look at something in my life? Is this just a smoke screen tactic from the devil”?

I mean question after question kept popping up. Finally I just said, “Lord I need your understanding on this. What are you trying to say”?

At this point I had already started walking the beautiful park trail. And I was coming up to an area where the sun was shining so brightly. Again, God was highlighting a beautiful bright shining creation He made.

Then at that point I remembered I had forgotten to take a picture of the moon. And God said, “Take a picture of the sun instead”. So I did.

Picture #3

Picture #2


I took the pictures and go to my gallery to view them. And on my gallery the pictures are listed backwards showing the most recent pictures taken. I viewed picture #3 and #2 before seeing #1.

I did not see the extra orbs on #3 and #2. However, when I got to the first picture I saw it.

I flipped back to the other two pictures and suddenly the orb was on those as well. I said, “Lord, what’s up with these orbs on my pictures”? It was also interesting that the orb was in different spots on each picture.

Some people might say that was an angel. So God starts talking to me about how He goes before us. How He sets a path. And I was walkingon a path. He also highlighted that the moon may shine bright but the sun (a.k.a. the Son) shines brighter. Cause that is how my A.D.D. brain works.

Then He reminds of some things that I have been experiencing in my own life that kinda connects everything He was saying to me.

I work for a big electronics company in the credit department. This company has out grown the building that we are currently in. They are building a new building close by. With that being said we are at our max on employees. They can’t hire anyone they don’t have an open spot for because there just isn’t enough room.

They could hire way more people but with no space for them it just wouldn’t work. So who’s left to take on extra work? That’s right, the existing employees.

Unfortunately there are many employees that act like they do more work than others yet they are constantly asking for other people to pitch in. Several people are wondering what those people do when managers aren’t looking and why the other good employees are having to pitch in with someone else’s work on top of their own.

I’m one of those people that always get sucked in to helping. And not only do I finish their stuff but I finish my own with pretty good records. And I’m not saying that to gloat about me.

I’m setting the stage of what it’s been like as of recent. Not only that but I’ve also had several people talking bad about me. For no other reason then to cause drama. Even supervisors and managers are partaking in this. I’ve had both supervisors and managers nit pick everything I do.

I kept asking why that keeps happening.  Especially since this is the company that sent me on an all expenses paid cruise for being a top performer in the company just last year. I try my best to do things with excellence. I am by no means perfect. But I am a very hard worker. “So God, tell me why”?

He told me that the God in me, the God behind, the God that is beside me and the God that goes before me has ruffled up their demons.

They don’t get why as much as they have tried to bring me down that I have stood higher.

The devil has used every tactic he knows of. God has protected me from it all. The bigger stuff the devil brought didn’t work. So maybe if he brings in smaller things a little at a time then I won’t notice what he’s actually trying to do.

Let me tell you it’s all smoke screen and illusions. He wants you to be distracted by all the chaos so you can’t focus on the blessing that’s coming.

I kept walking on the trail and came to another part of the path where the sun was shining again. And this was probably about 2 miles down from my first picture.

God said to take some more pictures. So I did. 

I looked at these and noticed one didn’t have the orb. So I asked God if there was some photography method that explains the orbs. He said to Google it.
So I did.

I found this definition on Wikipedia when I googled it. Not the best source of info but I really like what it says. And how it just really depicts what God is saying.

In photography, backscatter (also called near-camera reflection) is an optical phenomenon resulting in typically circular artifacts on an image, due to the camera’s flash being reflected from unfocused motes of dust, water droplets, or other particles in the air or water.

Caused by the backscatter of light by unfocused particles, these artifacts are also sometimes called orbs, referring to a common paranormal claim. Some appear with trails, suggesting motion”.

Did you catch some of those key words?

The devil is on his back, scratching his head trying of think of ways to trip you up. The devil is trying to get you unfocused. Throwing dust in the air. Those scatter tactics don’t work when you’re a child of God.

That doesn’t mean he won’t try.
The Bible says this in Isaiah 54:17 (NKJV):

No weapon formed against you shall prosper,

And every tongue which rises against you in judgment

You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,

And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord.
The weapons still form but they won’t prosper”.

I just want to highlight something ever so small that I said earlier. We are not perfect people. Being perfect is so over rated anyways. And I have felt at my work that many people there can’t find things wrong with my work ethic so the devil puts tiny seeds in the people around me to nit pick the smallest of things. Not that I don’t have a ton of work on my lap. Not that I’m doing the work of like three people. Not that I’m doing my work, helping others with theirs, taking care of my co-workers and customers.

Those things don’t matter to demons. They want to highlight the note you forgot to add to an account because you got three phone calls back to back while other people were logged off the phones for no reason.

And that cop sure did nit pick the turn signal. Even though that’s not ticket worthy.

We are even seeing this today with the impeachment of the President.

So let me start this next part off by saying, “I don’t care who you voted for or will vote for. I don’t care what your political party is. I don’t care if you love Trump or hate him. Like it or not, God chose Trump to run this country”. And I want to follow a leader that follows God. Is he perfect? No. Does he care for people. I do believe so. That’s not what the media wants you to believe. But he has done many good things for the American people. It doesn’t matter to me what your political stance is but I do have to add this to this article because of what God was speaking to me.

Trump was acquitted from that impeachment process just a few days ago. 

I really feel like there’s a message from God to all of us, not just myself. In the midst of chaos. In the midst of accusations, back stabbing, and curses on your name; God was setting the stage.

I feel the warning that I was getting this morning was that God knows how crazy people are acting. He knows how they are acting against your name against your character and against His name.

But He said, “All this time I’ve had your back”!

The devil wanted us all to feel like our backs were against the wall. That there was no way out. And let me tell you he did a good job of it too. But God did a better job!

Things were lining up. With every move the devil made God was sitting on His throne laughing His butt off. He knew exactly how things would play out. He knew exactly how the devil would move. And that’s how you win a war. Make your opponent think they are winning by giving them a few victories in battle. But God knew how to turn it around.

Sometimes God has to shake things up to sift out all the clumps. He’s removing those out of position that don’t serve His purpose in that area. 

That’s not to say that evil doesn’t have a purpose. It does otherwise, God can at any point, wipe out the evil. The darker it is the brighter God’s people shine.

So if you’re like me, wondering why things are happening then I am glad to have written this article.

God is doing some amazing things. It took me a while to see it. And that doesn’t mean that I won’t have moments where I forget. But God is making you shine brighter with all the chaos. His hand is moving.

And your name is being wiped clean. What could have taken you out only made you stronger. God is setting you up for your next big miracle.

I just keep hearing in my spirit, “God is my vindicator. God is my vindicator”. It’s chanting over and over that God is your vindicator!!!

Stay the course. And trust in Him.

Don’t be Lost Words to an Empty Soul


Don’t Be Lost Words to an Empty Soul:

In my prayer time God was speaking to me. He keeps saying that this is the year for a come back. Many people don’t realize how hard it’s actually been since I don’t really talk about my struggles. And how long it’s been for me praying on the same things over and over. Not that I don’t have struggle; I just choose not to focus on them. Not that I don’t have desires in my heart and want them to be fulfilled. But if all I ever did was focus on what I didn’t have I would never be able to move forward.

I had to stop for a moment and just thank God for past struggles. Because in that moment God was speaking. I started thanking Him for everything that I had been through because had I not been through those things I would never know what it was like. 

I wouldn’t know how to help someone going through the same things. I wouldn’t know what it was like being in a long term relationship only to have the other person skip out before it really even began. I wouldn’t know what is was like to have a parent walk out on you at 9 years old.

I wouldn’t know what it’s like to have a friend manipulate you so bad that you couldn’t see because you cared so deeply for them. I wouldn’t know what it was like to lend money to a family member for a funeral only to have them never pay you back.

I wouldn’t know what it was like to be rejected for promotion after promotion from one job to the next. They all say the same thing. “You are one of our best employees. I wish everyone showed up on time. Barely missed a day of work and plowed through with the type of work ethics you have”.  But when a promotion came up I was much too “needed” in the position I was in.  

I wouldn’t know what it was like to have a loved one go through cancer. I would never know what heart break felt like. And I would never know what it felt like to go through severe anxiety and depression from years of waiting on God’s promises to pass and my dreams to come true. As a 31 year old; I would like to get married one day.

But had I not gone through those things I would have never known what it felt like. I wouldn’t know how to bring a smile to someones face or an encouraging word after a loss. I’m not here to boast about my suffering. I just simply want to point something out.

The question is often asked, “Why does bad things happen to good people? Why does God allow shootings and discrimination and things of the sort? Why does God allow evil in the world”?

God gives us the power to choose. At any point in my life I could have chosen different paths. I could still be in a bad relationship. I could have chosen to have relationships with toxic people (family members or friends). I could have chosen to stay away from church. I could have chosen to stay at my first job where I probably would have been promoted eventually. 

God doesn’t make evil. He doesn’t create bad things in this world. It’s our choices that shape our lives. But not just our lives but the lives around us too. I’m not here to say that I have the answer to everything. I struggle daily with what I should do and what I really want to do.

But every disappointment was an opportunity that later would help me. Without those struggles I would never know how to lift someone else up. I don’t know about you but I don’t want to be lost words to an empty soul. This world has enough emptiness. I’d much rather fill someone else up with what God filled me with.

He filled me with strength, perseverance, joy, hope, encouragement. He filled me with a sound mind. And a healed soul. He filled me with His word daily whether I really noticed or not. And He filled me with crazy, looney faith. And I just want to encourage any else that is going through tough times that it does get better. One step, one day at a time. 

Be blessed everyone! @gitgfaith 

God has bug spray!

I have to put a disclaimer on this before writing too far in. I had a weird dream but it wasn’t just a weird dream. I was half asleep however I was awake enough to know that I was dreaming.

It was very short and pretty gross. It grossed me out! So if you get quemish don’t go any further. 🙂

I dreamed that I was looking at my face in the mirror and I had a giant pimple that I just had to pop! (Warning! It gets grosser so nows the chance to opt out).

All of a sudden, as I’m squeezing this giant pimple, a big worm starts coming out of it! Mega GROSS! But that was the dream…that was it. (I know, but I did tell you it was short and gross).

Right after the dream I heard God say, “It’s been popped! It’s been released”!

This clearly was a message from God. But what does it mean?

There are two highlighted things in the dream. The pimple that had to be popped. And what came out of the pimple (the worm).

Pimples are usually a raised bump on the skin, typically on the face. They are made up of excess sebum and dead skin cells and cause the area to be inflamed.

Now for the worm I spent several hours looking for “the worm” I saw in my dream. I had not seen this worm before. It was very distinct. This was not an earth worm. It had a prominent head that was this orange tint color. And the body was a soft yellow or tan-ish color. And you could tell one end from the other. The head did not blend in with the rest of the body. And the worm was not short. It was long and had a few legs.

I love how Webster’s Dictionary defines the different aspects of a worm.

Worm: (noun)
1: a: EARTHWORM broadly : an annelid worm

b: any of numerous relatively small elongated usually naked and soft-bodied animals (such as a grub, pinworm, tapeworm, shipworm, or slowworm)

2: a: a human being who is an object of contempt, loathing, or pity : WRETCH

b: something that torments or devours from within

3: archaic : SNAKE, SERPENT

4: a usually small self-contained and self-replicating computer program that invades computers on a network and usually performs a destructive action

Worm: (verb)

wormed; worming; worms: to move or proceed sinuously or insidiously

1: a: to proceed or make (one’s way) insidiously or deviouslyworm their way into positions of power

b: to insinuate or introduce (oneself) by devious or subtle means

c: to cause to move or proceed in or as if in the manner of a worm

2: to obtain or extract by artful or insidious questioning or by pleading, asking, or persuading —usually used with out of finally wormed the truth out of him

3: to treat (an animal) with a drug to destroy or expel parasitic worms

I finally found the ‘worm’ in my dream. It was a grub worm. But not just any grub worm. The particular worm that jolted my spirit when I saw it was a witchetty grub worm.

I’m just gonna throw this out there. I don’t think there’s a coincidence that the worm in my dream, that I had never seen before and knew nothing about, has the root word ‘witch’ in it.

I’m not here to make you believe this way or that. But let me tell you there are dark forces our there plotting against you. (But that’s a whole other subject).

So what do these worms do? This is the larva for many species of moth. You can find them #underground feeding on #roots.

Let me rephrase that. You can find them underground (hidden, or unseen) feeding on roots (grounded roots in Christ).

I’ve felt for a very long time that things haven’t been right. I’ve done the right things and while everyone else was just floating through life I felt like my life has been under a magnifying glass.

I’ve felt like every good thing that I did has been noticed, but completely ignored. And every bad thing (or rather it wasn’t right in the eyes of authority) was picked apart. It’s been a heavy weight that stress just piles on.

I have felt things eating away at my soul. Feeding on my roots as a Christian so that for the longest time I couldn’t find my identity in Christ.

The devil has tried so hard to bring evil against me. But I felt like God was saying the worm sent against me just inflamed the area. But now is the time to take authority and pop that pimple!

While looking for the worm in my dream I found a scripture that God spoke so deeply into my heart.

Joel 2:25-27 King James Version (KJV)

25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

26 And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.

27 And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the Lord your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed.

He is the Lord my God! He will make everything right again. And He will restore my years. And the great thing about God is that this isn’t just for me.

He’s a big loving God that cares for His children. I’m ready for the bug spray Lord! Thank you Lord releasing blessings. Thank you in Jesus name amen!